What a Life

So, I've decided that I am way too busy. Between working full time, being a mom full time and teaching Primary and attending all family functions and trying to maintain a household (even though that doesn't seem to be working very well) I am running out of fun time. I look forward to the rare opportunities I get to chat on the phone or go to breakfast with a friend. I'd even take a lonesome trip to the grocery store and be satisfied. I just wish I had more time to get everything done and be able to enjoy some time with my family and friends. But I suppose that is the life I signed up for when we decided to start our little family.

I really do enjoy being a mom. I can't believe I'm saying that. For a long time I often wondered if I'd really like it. I am glad I do like it though. I don't even mind if he throws up on me or wipes boogers on my shirt. Well...I take that back. I do mind, it just doesn't gross me out as much. I'm really enjoying watching him grow and become more active and alert. I love to take him places and just watch him interact with everyone around him (I still need to teach him to not talk to strangers). We have really gotten into a good routine and I really enjoy that. I like to think I am a spontaneous type person, but I really need that structure.

So, as much as I miss my "old life" I wouldn't trade it in for the world. I was the same way when I first got married. I really missed my single life. I missed having things my way and not having to compromise so much. But in all reality, I loved being married and would never want to be single again. And now I barely remember my single life. It would be so strange. I hope in a couple years I won't even remember what life was like without children. Not that I want Christian to grow too fast, but I am excited to see how he grows up and how he interacts with his siblings (that is assuming we have more kids). I really think I'll like mommyhood!

I don't want to be the bad guy

Who says just because you are a supervisor means you have to be the bad guy all the time? Why couldn't I go to one of those branches that doesn't have issues?? Not only have we had an employee come back from lunch almost 2 hours late (it's a darn good thing he came back!), we also have an employee who is being quite cold to the "boss" types. This individual claims there are too many chiefs and not enough indians. I know it's hard to be told that things are changing. I had a hard time with change in my early years, but change is good...change brings better, more confident results. Embrace the change! Unfortunately, this is not a shared opinion. I feel pretty good that this individual will come back from a long weekend feeling better, or at least I hope. Just minor speed bumps.

And then, I got to interview a couple people for an open position...who said I had experience interviewing??? Who doesn't go to that class until Mar 27??? Boy, I love being thrown into new things. (Embrace change!) Oh, and those new accounts I don't know how to open...I've opened several now. Not so bad, actually. So, it's amazing how much you really do know when you are thrown into the deep end with no life jacket. It's amazing how you learn things so much faster when you have to figure it out on your own. And then there are all the things I have to learn to pass my designated test. Ugh...You wouldn't believe how fast 10 hours flies by! I just hope I don't screw up anything too major. Hopefully I only make fixable mistakes. I don't want to be the one messing up the audit score next year. That's a whole different topic.

Anyway, I really do like my new job, but it's a lot to take in all at once. They really want to get me up to speed sooner than later...and we all have our suspicions on why that might be. I think big changes might be coming our way next year. UGH!! Remember, I am the one that wanted the promotion...and yet, sometimes I just want to give it back.