A Little of This and That

I feel like I have so much to say, but nothing to say all at the same time. I suppose we'll start where we left off and go from there. I apologize in advance for the length and possible choppiness of this post. I'm using it as therapy today.

I am feeling much better since our miscarriage. Life seems bearable again and I feel like we're getting back into our normal routine. We've been instructed to try to wait a couple of months before getting pregnant again, but hopefully we will be able to have a baby soon.

I was so out of sorts the past few weeks. I just went through the motions of life because I had to. Nothing extra was accomplished and I just got lazy. So, now, I have to play catch up and I just don't feel like it. My free time for the next few months will be spent completely rearranging our tiny condo. I have to make it work. I think I'm going to do one room at a time. I'll take everything out and sort it and start to purge anything unnecessary. Then I'll have a clean slate to work with as I start to put the room all back together. The kitchen and our bedroom are the hardest. We just "need" more than we have space. And as our family grows...it will become more tight. But right now we're stuck here. And I'm grateful we have a roof over our heads. Does anyone know how to organize a small closet? We aren't utilizing our space efficiently. (If only I could get rid of my wedding dress...but Dave won't let me.)

Anyway, enough about our small quarters. We've been able to relax and have a good time lately, also. We've spent a lot of time at the park, picnicking, at the zoo, at the pool, going out to eat, and enjoying our family and friends. How do we fit it all in? I never used to have a love for summer until we had Christian. He is SO happy outside in the sunshine. It just makes me happy to see him so happy. He could stay outside all day if I let him. Unfortunately, I have such fair skin that I have to be ultra careful and so Christian doesn't get to be outside for too long at a time. But I think it's enough to make him happy. I can't wait for next summer when he's a little older and can do even more.

This last week, Dave and I had the same day off. We try to coordinate our schedules to not have that happen, but sometimes it just does. This time, we saw it as a blessing. A time to spend together. We had plans to go to the temple in the morning, but for some reason I couldn't find my recommend. I tore the house apart looking everywhere for it. I've never misplaced it in the past and I was very, very bummed. We had been looking forward to attending the temple all week. We didn't find it for 2 days. Someone (think small person) lodged it behind/under the couch. (Maybe it's good we have a small house....less places to lose things.) I have never been so happy to find a piece of paper in my life. I hope we can go next week. I will never misplace my temple recommend again. I hated not knowing where it was.

As I mentioned in my last post, Dave and I have decided it is time for me to stay home with Christian. The decision was not an easy one for me to make. I agonized over when (not if) to quit for quite some time. I struggled (and still do a little) to have the faith to make the right choice. It will be hard to be at home everyday. And it will be hard to cut our income in half. I'm not sure, yet, how it will all work out, but I know it will. We might struggle, but I know our needs will be met. We have also decided that I need to quit sooner than our original plan. I struggled to feel comfortable with our December time frame. As for right now, unless something big happens, I am planning my last day at FirstBank to be Oct 30. I have worked there over 7 years now and I will miss it, but I know Christian (and our future children) will benefit from me being home. I just pray to have the faith that it will all work for our benefit.

This month brings Christian's 2nd birthday (19th) and our 6th wedding anniversary (30th). For some reason I just haven't thought about it much and have nothing planned. Any ideas?? I am at a loss what to buy a 2 year old boy. I suppose I'll wander around Target and see what jumps out at me. Thankfully he has no idea what his birthday is and it won't matter when we celebrate a week late.

I am now officially a member of a book group. Our first book is Twilight. I've never read the books or seen the movie and I've really been enjoying it so far. We are finishing the book this week and watching the movie. I can't believe that I'm enjoying it so much. I never thought I'd like it. Here's to trying new things. And our next series...Harry Potter. I can't believe I actually want to read it. I must not be feeling right. So, if you ever read a great book (nothing religious) please let me know. We'll need some suggestions to keep this group going. And who doesn't love an excuse to get together with girl friends and eat and talk?

The Good, The Bad and The Really Ugly

Well...I guess I'll post my big announcement. Dave and I have decided it is time for me to stay home with Christian. So, next year I'm going to quit my job and stay home. I can't wait to try out the stay at home mom thing for a little while.

Now for the other, not nearly as exciting, news. Dave and I discovered we were pregnant a few weeks ago. However, I had a miscarriage last night. I'm doing ok, but still in some pain today. We are just trying to rest and take it easy for a couple days.

I guess my blog can't be all warm and fuzzy.

Umm...It's Been 2 Months...

So, what have I been up to the last couple of months, you ask? Check out my other blog to find out. Sorry I've been so terrible at updating. I'll try to be better (I say that every time!).

Keep checking back for a big announcement in the next couple of weeks. I'm pretty excited about it!

Dear Diary Part 2

I'm pretty sure today is Sunday. The day we keep the Sabbath holy. Maybe I got a little mixed up today. I've been all out of sorts. I can't seem to keep my days straight.

I woke up after 8am today and freaked out that I was late for work. Then I realized it was Sunday. PHEW!! We got up, ate breakfast, and then I remembered that my visiting teachers were supposed to come. Since Christian and Dave both have the flu, I thought I'd better cancel. I'm sure we don't need to get them sick.

Well. (insert big sigh here) Dave went to work today. I hate that he has to work some Sundays, but it's fewer than before. And I'm super grateful he has a job.

Pretty soon Christian keeps saying "phone, phone" and pointing at Dave's phone. "Good job, honey, that's a phone." I'm such a proud mom. My son is SO smart. Wait a minute!! Dave's at work. Darn! After calling his store we come to the conclusion that I'd better take his phone to him.

Christian and I arrive at the store just in time for lunch. (Coincidence, I think not!) We enjoy our lunch together and Dave tells me he won a contest at work. The prize is $400. Wahoo!!

After lunch I asked Dave to listen to the car. It's been making a funny noise the past couple of days and with everyone being so sick we just hadn't gotten to it yet. Here's how it goes.

Dave: "Okay, babe, start the car."
I start the car and Dave gets a perplexed look on his face.
Dave: "Okay, babe, turn off the car."
I turn the key.
Dave: "Hon, go ahead and turn the car off, please."
Me: "I did."
Not only did I turn the car off, but I pulled the key out....so why is it still running??
Dave: "Darn, pop the hood."
I pop the hood and Dave tinkers around.
Dave: "The starter's going out, we need a new one now."
Me: "How much is this going to cost?"
Dave: "Don't know, let's go find out."
Me: "Can it wait until tomorrow?"
Dave: "Sure, but we'll have to tow it."
Me: "Darn!"

So, we buy the parts necessary ($225) and take it to the shop. They quote us $70 for that...we'll see what it ends up being.

I'm not happy this all had to happen on a Sunday. I should have taken the car to him yesterday, but I really didn't think it was that big of a deal. Good thing I have a husband that works at an auto parts store. And way to go, Babe, on winning $400! It'll now reimburse us for the car repairs. Coincidence, I think NOT!

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

Today was a pretty low key day. It started by sleeping in until after 8am...so refreshing. Then, after breakfast, we went for a nice walk and played at the park. We ran errands and returned home for lunch and a nap. Christian only slept for an hour today. He usually sleeps for three. He was in a good mood though and pretty even tempered for the most part. This afternoon he was playing with our shoes and I figured he couldn't do too much damage so I let him play. The rest of the afternoon carried on as usual, except Dave came home from work 4 hours early because he had a fever and was feeling very sick. He slept until midnight and then discovered we were out of medicine (at least the kind that wasn't expired..oops!). He is feeling very ill and will need to drug himself heavily to make it through tomorrow. I, being the good wife, offered to run to our local 24 hour Wal Mart to get a few things. It's raining tonight. As soon as I stepped outside onto the wet sidewalk I quickly realized my sock was wet. I examined the bottom of my shoe to discover a hole. It appears Christian wasn't playing with our shoes, he was poking holes in the bottom of my crocs. Hmmm...I suppose it's time for new shoes.

Toodeloo!

Day 1

As an update to my post a couple weeks ago I have started to train for the 3 day walk in 2010. I have decided that I am way too out of shape to ever survive that much walking in only 3 months. And I need more time to raise that much money. I still really want to do it so I am going to start training now for next year's walk. Then I can register in Feb 2010 and give myself 6 months to raise the money. Plus I have all this time to figure out fundraising ideas. So...if you have any ideas don't hesitate to share. I do realize that I may not be able to walk next year. So many things can happen between now and then, but it certainly won't hurt to train. I will update this blog as I continue to train and attempt to reach my goal of walking at least a mile everyday. Wish me luck..I'm going to need it. I'm going to have to do some serious creative time management to squish that into my day. But I know I can. I'm not that busy.

Today was my first hour long walk. I have no clue how far I walked. I need to get a way of tracking that. I need new shoes. Good shoes. My right foot and shin hurt so bad. I think my shoes have too much arch support. Sometimes I am glad to live in a big city with lots of resources. I will need to go to a special shoe store soon and get fitted for some good walking shoes. I'm sure it'll cost me an arm and a leg, but it's worth it. I know I'd give up if it was too painful to walk. Plus I stand all day at work so I need my feet to feel oh so good.

Walk and Walk and Walk

You might think I'm crazy. But you probably already thought that. For a while now I've had a certain topic on my mind. Breast Cancer. I don't have any close friends or relatives that have been diagnosed with breast cancer, but several of my customers at the bank are currently fighting the battle. Thankfully, they are winning. As I've been thinking about what I can do to help I came up with a nice long list of "easy" things I could do. But then I came across the Susan G. Komen for the Cure 3 day walk. I've heard of this before and never in a million years ever thought I would/could do it. After all....you walk 60 miles in 3 days. That's A LOT of walking! And you must raise at least $2,300.00 to participate. That's A LOT of money! Phew! Maybe I should reconsider.

Well, I did reconsider and a month later I'm still thinking about it. It won't go away. I can't get it off my mind. I've come up with a lengthy list of all the reason's I shouldn't/can't do it. So why do I still feel like I NEED to do it? I'm not gonna lie...I'm a bigger girl. I could stand to lose a lot of weight. I realize all of that walking will probably help with the weightloss goals, but that's A LOT of walking for a big girl to commit to. And A LOT of money to raise for a REALLY poor girl to commit to. And I can come up with A LOT more excuses, too.

I'm usually pretty good at talking myself out of things. And then I feel bad for not doing it in the end. And I'm really trying to not do that anymore. And my word of the year is LEARN and I could definitely learn a lot while walking. And think of all those pounds disappearing. And I'll probably make some really good friends. And it would really help my out of control blood pressure. And I really want another baby...but I need to get healthy before that's going to happen.

Do you see my dilemma? I can't make a firm decision. I don't know why it's so hard for me. So let's say I do sign up and pay my $90 for registration. And I don't end up raising enough money. Have no fear...I don't walk 60 miles, but I still raised money to help cancer research. And all is well. I'm out $90 and still skinnier from all the training. But if I don't register. I sit around the house all day and get fatter..or at best maintain..and go about my day as normal. Oh and don't forget about how I'll always wonder if I could've done it.

BLERG!

I'm probably going to do it. So...who wants to train with me? At least 2 miles everyday. More on the weekends/days off. I'll keep you updated on what I decide to do.