I Quit!

Okay...so I didn't quit my job, but I'm transferring back to being a senior teller at Jordan. This is a job I love and will never be bored of again. I know that I could be a supervisor at some point..and maybe in another 5 years I'll try it again, but I am loving the idea of less stress and working with people I actually like. My health is in poor condition right now and the more stress I have the worse it gets. So, in effort to reduce stress and time on the road (which is stressful sometimes) I have decided to go back. I hope it works out. I know it will...everyone seems excited for me to come back. I hate admitting that my health has gotten the better of me and I tried to play it off as other things, but it really comes down to stress levels. It is true I don't love my current job and I probably never will. New Accounts is not my cup of tea. I'm glad to know it now and I won't ever have to worry about it again. I am happy to know that I can help out when needed, but I won't have to do it on a daily basis. Yipee!! All the agony and stress of wondering if I'm making the right decision is behind me. I feel good about this. Even though I would like to quit...I can't...so this is the next best thing....Getting paid to do something I love to do.

Welcome To My Head....If You Dare.

Well, I've come to another fork in the road. I hate them..I'm not a fan of forks. Okay, so I like forks, just not when they are in the road. So, I've come to a point at work where I don't like my job. The focus is all on one tiny part of the job...the part that I have a personal conflict with. The part that I avoided for 5+ years. The part that I've tried to overcome, but failed. Alright, maybe I'm being a little hard on myself, but I really don't like my job. I'm SO over it I can't stand it anymore. I'm not a salesman. I have NO problem offering products to customers. I have NO problem offering every benefit I can think of and letting the customer decided whether or not he/she wants it. I have NO problem if they say no. Well..I'm the only one that seems to feel that way. So...I want my old job back!!!! But then I don't want to go back to my old branch if I'm not going to stay. I don't want to get bored again. I don't want to have NO responsibility, I just want to focus on one aspect of my job. I just want to be a Teller supervisor. I have noticed that job doesn't really exist anymore and I need to decide what else I would like to do. New Accounts is NOT for me. Would it be horrible to ask for my old job back?? It's available...is that a sign? Ack!! I would lose .60 an hour but I would have 1hr less time of daycare a day and 30 less miles of driving a day. Plus I would be able to go home for lunch again and I would work with people I like. I can think of a MILLION reasons why I want to go back, but is it the right decision? Am I quitting too soon? Should I give up after just a few months? Would it be dumb of me to stay in a job that makes me miserable just for a little more money? YES! I think it would. I don't think the money is worth the stress and problems. Should I try a new job..a different opportunity? Will I like it? Hate it? Get bored really soon? I REALLY love being a teller...I think this job has just reassured me that I really LOVE being a teller. I don't think I will ever get bored again. Plus, if I'm a teller...I'll get my $100 incentive a month. So, it will even out. Ack!! What does a girl do in this situation? I just want to make the right choice, even if it isn't the easy one.

Here Goes Nothin'

So, I had a follow up appointment today. It was short, sweet and to the point. Basically I'm doing better, but I just have to be patient and let things run their course. Did I ever tell you that patience is not a strength of mine? So, my calcium and potassium and everything has improved a lot, but I am still low. Dr. Falko explained to me today that on my first appointment with him I was very, very close to having severly low calcium. That would explain all the phone calls to see if I was ok. But now, even though I am still low, I am doing fine. Unfortunately, I have some sort of stomach bug and I don't feel fantastic at all. Also, my blood pressure was still quite high (okay...really high!) so I am on new meds for that too. So, now I am taking 5 pills in the morning and 4 pills at night. I'm not good at this, but I am trying because I want to feel good and lose some weight. I can't wait to have some energy back again. I'll need all I can get...Christian is a fast little booger.

Also, today we decided that it was WAY past time to actually clean the house a little. By no means does this mean that very much got cleaned, but probably half. And it wasn't a deep clean...just clean enough that you don't want to kill yourself when you walk in the door. I love to throw things away!! I'm a purger (but not bulimic). It feels good to fill a garbage bag and chuck it in the dumpster. So, we can actually eat at our table and sit on the couch and play on the floor without having to move anything. What a grand feeling. It's a little embarrassing to admit just how dirty our little place was. And to be honest, it wasn't that long ago that we cleaned last time...we just had stuff everywhere! Now, we just need to tackle the dreaded bathroom...maybe on Saturday.

It's been a long time

Wow! I neglected this blog for quite some time. I wonder if everyone has given up on me yet. So, a lot has happened since my last post. I have had a lot of severe health problems. On Valentine's Day (Feb 14 in case you forgot) I went to work for a meeting even though I wasn't feeling well. I decided that I could push through and be fine. My hands and feet were really numb and I was trying with all my might to pretend I was fine. Well, it didn't last long. I clamped up fast and they had to call 911 because nobody could get to me fast enough. So, I took a little journey via ambulance to Skyridge (which I don't like) and spent a good portion of my Valentine's Day trying to explain to the doctor that I wasn't there for menstrual cramps. The paramedics told them I was cramping...so of course that is what they would assume. I would have in their situation. So, once I could talk well enough and once they let Dave in we got them all straightened out; however, nobody has heard of pseudohypoparathyroidism...so nobody knew what to do to treat it. So, I had to tell them that I needed calcium and magnesium and depending on my levels some potassium via IV. They confirmed that was indeed the treatment I needed and proceeded to give me just that. They let me go home several hours later once I was able to sign discharge papers and walk. I spent the next few days in extreme amounts of pain that I wasn't going to tell anyone about (unless they touched me). I was going to try to work the next day, but I was so sick it wasn't going to happen. So, we did the only logical thing to do and packed up our little family, hopped in the car and drove to Utah.

Once in UT we were able to see my family, except Tom. Mom, Dad, and Maren just returned home from a trip to Europe. It was fun to see everyone again. And it was fun for everyone to meet Christian. It was a good trip and it really helped me to keep moving and get better a lot faster than sitting at home or laying in bed all day. It was the perfect weekend get away.

Well, when we returned from UT it was time to realize that my health problems were not resolved and I started to look for another doctor. I stumbled across a group of doctors at the University of Colorado Hospital and decided to call the office. I took the first Wednesday appointment I could with Dr. Falko. It was such a relief to see him and he knew what my condition was and how to treat it. What a relief that he has actually treated multiple people with this same condition. He put me on some different meds which are also stronger and I am already feeling better after just one week.

I did have some blood work done yesterday and my levels are still severely low, but they are on the rise. What a relief. He told me that once this is under control I will have an annual visit and that's it. I am also able to have as many children as I want. Also, once my calcium is under control my blood pressure will most likely drop down to normal levels again. WooHoo!

All in all it's been a crazy time this last month. I have been very sick, but I think I'll be fine with this new treatment. I've even felt well enough to work some overtime shifts. Nothing like some extra cash flow. I need to be able to pay all the extra daycare and medical expenses.

The Ants Go Marching Two by Two Hoorah!

Two names you go by:
1. Jeanne
2. Mommy

Two things you are wearing right now:
1. Flannel jammie pants
2. Long sleeved tshirt

Two of your favorite things to do:
1. Playing with Christian
2. Snooping on other people's blogs

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1. Dinner
2. A raise

Two Pets that you have or have had:
1. Jake
2. Merlin

Two things you did last night:
1. Watched October Road
2. Ate a bucket full of ice cream

Two things you ate today:
1. Chicken
2. Pretzels

Two people you last talked to:
1. Dave
2. Miranda

Two things you're doing tomorrow:
1. Cleaning my house
2. Playing with Christian

Two longest trips taken:
1. WV to WY
2. Honeymoon

Two favorite holidays:
1. I have 10 favorite holidays (Bank Holidays)
2. Christmas

Two favorite beverages:
1. Root Beer
2. Ice Water

I'm such a Snoop!

I’ve been inspired! I have been very nosy reading my cousins’s blogs and they do such a great job. I don’t post often enough and not much content. I realized that I LOVE seeing pictures of their children even when it seems like there are several that all look alike. I love watching little videos of their kids doing things like sticking their tongue out or blowing raspberries. I am truly interested in what they have to say and what is going on in their lives. Why wouldn’t people be interested in what I have to say and what is going on in my life? I don’t get to see a lot of people very often and reading a blog on occasion is sometimes the only way we can keep in touch. And I think it’s a great way to keep in touch and keep a record of family events and pictures. Our new blog is still under construction, but soon I will have it all figured out and I will be able to post things with ease. Or at least I hope! I hope to have something to write on a weekly basis if not more often. I don’t know how often anyone reads this, but it’s more for me anyway.

Check out our new blog under construction at http://www.putnamupdates.com/
And if anyone knows how to use WordPress let me know....I'm not smart with computers, but I'm slowly catching on. We are still in the VERY early construction process on the new site...but we'll let you know when we transfer to the new blog. Until then keep looking for updates on blogger.

What a Life

So, I've decided that I am way too busy. Between working full time, being a mom full time and teaching Primary and attending all family functions and trying to maintain a household (even though that doesn't seem to be working very well) I am running out of fun time. I look forward to the rare opportunities I get to chat on the phone or go to breakfast with a friend. I'd even take a lonesome trip to the grocery store and be satisfied. I just wish I had more time to get everything done and be able to enjoy some time with my family and friends. But I suppose that is the life I signed up for when we decided to start our little family.

I really do enjoy being a mom. I can't believe I'm saying that. For a long time I often wondered if I'd really like it. I am glad I do like it though. I don't even mind if he throws up on me or wipes boogers on my shirt. Well...I take that back. I do mind, it just doesn't gross me out as much. I'm really enjoying watching him grow and become more active and alert. I love to take him places and just watch him interact with everyone around him (I still need to teach him to not talk to strangers). We have really gotten into a good routine and I really enjoy that. I like to think I am a spontaneous type person, but I really need that structure.

So, as much as I miss my "old life" I wouldn't trade it in for the world. I was the same way when I first got married. I really missed my single life. I missed having things my way and not having to compromise so much. But in all reality, I loved being married and would never want to be single again. And now I barely remember my single life. It would be so strange. I hope in a couple years I won't even remember what life was like without children. Not that I want Christian to grow too fast, but I am excited to see how he grows up and how he interacts with his siblings (that is assuming we have more kids). I really think I'll like mommyhood!